2025 · Square Root of 45 · My One Piece of Heaven on Earth

Mathematically, the year 2025 is the square of 45.

√2025 = 45.

And I am 45.

This synchronicity feels like no coincidence. This is the year energy begins to move. Through me. Through my art. For the first time in my life, I am doing only Art—nothing else.

This year, I am finally ready—energetically, emotionally, spiritually—to create my one piece of heaven on Earth. A small piece is enough. Just a square meter of harmony, love, and alignment that can ripple outward wherever I go.

The movement of energy within me began with a breast cancer scare. While waiting for the results, something shifted. I started to move energy through my body—using practices I’ve known for decades. Reiki, which I began 30 years ago. Breath and energy work from my Shaolin self-mastery classes. I also signed up for energy therapy.

I cannot deny the power of the other modalities that supported me through this process: plant healing, healing through dance, stretching, swimming, and of course—painting. I’ve also experienced tantra healing and healing sex, rooted in true love, not romantic attachment.

This, I now believe, is one of the most potent ways to open and heal the heart chakra and the sacral chakra. Since Tihany, I’ve discovered that I love sex healing. It’s become one of the most effective ways for me to open my heart and activate the red, orange, and yellow chakra centres.

These are colours I never used before—colours I disliked in my art. But for the sake of healing, I created a chakra series using them. When I first started seeing my energy therapist, I came in with these lower centres—especially red, orange, and yellow—completely depleted. I was disconnected from Gaia.

Today, I can proudly say I have reconnected. I live a healthy, balanced life.

Yet, every time I see my therapist, he still says the same thing: that I give away too much of my energy from the yellow centre—my personal power.

I am working on that.

I am learning to set boundaries.

To not allow others to drain me.

This is a big shift. I have been food for energy vampires my entire life. But now, I am taking my power back—once and for all.

My intention this year is to stand in my power. To take back what has been stolen from me by others. To say, clearly and without hesitation: No more.

I stand strong in my yellow centre. I honour myself. I do good by me.

I know what I need to do—and I am doing it, regardless of anyone’s approval.

2025, at age 45, is my year.

This is the year energy flows through my art—and first and foremost, through me.

I don’t need much.

A square meter of heaven on Earth is more than enough.

And I carry that with me wherever I go.