Time to face the music.

I’ve been putting this off since I arrived in Poland, but I need to make the call and return to the hospital for further testing—this time possibly a biopsy of the cervical cells.

I’ve delayed it since I got back on January 8. I needed time to feel normal again—to do normal things: eat, sleep, spend time with friends and family, do laundry, clean, drink, smoke, and simply enjoy life before entering another year with illness hovering in the background.

Now it’s time. I’ll do what I did a year ago when I faced breast issues: slow my breathing, return to meditation, and meet this with presence rather than fear.