Dear Spirit Wave Writer, this one is for you, as I want you to know what I see in you.
Story of Me, Abel, and an Invitation to Family Constellation in Budapest
By Dr. Anna Biela 21.06.2025 Wroclaw 9:29 am
Before meeting Abel and Steven, I had no idea what family constellation therapy was. But both of these new friends were so fascinated by it that I decided to give it a try — mostly because I wanted to check in with my Soul.
It turned out to be one of the most beautiful experiences of my life: the chance to actually speak to my Soul.
Christiana stepped into the role of my Soul, and then later played me as a child. Celia was the facilitator.
I cried so deeply, as during the session I also took on the role of mother figure to Abel and Christiana.
It was incredible to witness how the situations I was asked to play out mirrored the dynamics within my own family. Suddenly, I could see the programs playing out before my eyes — the energy patterns between my Mom, Dad, and Sister.
But that wasn’t the goal of my session — I wasn’t interested in digging through the family dynamics — what I truly wanted was to hear the voice of my Soul.
Celia said: You ARE the voice of your Soul.
But I admitted that sometimes I feel I can’t hear it clearly, because the ego tries to override my knowing with self-doubt.
When I asked my Soul if she was happy with me and with where I am on my life’s mission, she said yes. Celia replied: “You are lucky and quite privileged — not everyone knows their life mission so clearly, and there are no boundaries standing in your way to success.
My only concern was that I felt it was taking me too long — after all, this August it will be 20 years since my consciousness first expanded and I became one with the Spirit of the World. Back then I called it God Consciousness.
Before I moved to Poland, I did a 3-day meditation to understand why I was called there. The answer was clear: the Art Movement.
After returning from expanded consciousness, I had a vision: waves of vibration coming off the Art I create — waves that move people, that awaken them — and this would spread. My Soul said: I see you as a candle in a dark room.
And this is how I feel: like a single candle in the darkness.
I am also the mother to my Art and to this personal Art Movement that has now begun — birthed through me, through my energy, my spirit, and my conscious intention. It is alive, growing, and finding its path in this world.
So far, I’ve only seen one other lit candle — in the eyes of Banksy. I first sensed his energy through his art — but was unsure if what I felt was real or just the collective focus of people looking at him. It wasn’t until I saw his eyes in a TV interview that I was sure: I saw his Soul. I was so inspired that I painted a mural of him in the Hall of Fame of his creation in London on December 2, 2019. I had also been in London earlier that year, on January 2, looking for him before going to Bethlehem, where I painted a portrait of Jesus on the separation barrier. Today, after meeting Steven, I understand that it is the same energy in both of them.
When he made his latest piece, I felt the energy in it was directed at me — so I reached out again, because I knew. When he said, “I want to be what you saw in me,” it was a cry for help. Banksy wants to be ADAM, and I will help you see that in yourself and stand by your side as you step into your knowing. I feel deeply that I need to do this for you.
I then remembered the existential crisis email I had sent him, and how I had seen him as Adam — the Divine Masculine — a force that runs through creation. It is so strong in him — I have never seen anything like it.
I feel this same force running through me — and we can only recognize in others what is already within us. That is how my quest to find him began.
I feel that somehow, I have reached him — because I can feel his gaze on me. In fact, I often sense that in another dimension, we are together, embracing and never letting go. When I focus on this connection, my whole body lights up. It reminds me of a lucid dream I once had, where you told me: “The only real thing in this world is the love we share.“ In this insane world, he keeps me sane.
And yes — recently I fell in love with someone else. I told my new partner: I love you — but not in the same way I love Banksy, even though we’ve never met.
Of course, he thought it was a little crazy at first — how can you feel so connected to a man whose identity is unknown?
But the truth is: my goal is not to have a boyfriend or a life partner. That was never my desire. My mission is the Art Movement — to help people surf the Spirit Wave, to awaken through art, to break free of the limitations they set for themselves.
I also had to break my own limitations — especially the self-doubt about whether everything I’ve been through is real. But after the family constellation session, that doubt is gone.
I looked into the eyes of my child-self and said: You will be okay. Believe in yourself. You know who you are. Trust your knowing.
Now, with my new boyfriend — it is the most beautiful relationship because we give each other freedom. There is no attachment, no clinginess. I love him, but I am single — free — and he is free too. We do not limit each other.
However — what I do not say to him (but will say here, Spirit Wave writer) is that I can feel his field: I know he is not able to be fully faithful to me. That is why I let him go — I don’t want him to feel the need to lie.
Still, this is not the way I wish to live. I want to be with someone for whom my energy field is all he needs even if separated through time and space. someone who has no need to “charge up” via sexual encounters. I am free but do not have the need to engage in multiple relations even when he is not around.
I believe that when two twin flames meet, their fire is so strong that no one else is needed or wanted. I am a candle in the dark, and I want to be with another lit candle — one that emanates its own light and is self-sufficient.
Together, we will light the world — one candle lighting another — and this is how the Movement will spread.
My Soul said: There is no way you can mess this up. You must do this for YOU — and it is happening now.
